that first afternoon
I felt
the disapproving glint in your eye\u2014
a flint
sparking
future of rejection<\/p>\n\n\n\n
in innocence
I overlooked
your strength that grew
like water freezing
to prise apart
our defences<\/p>\n\n\n\n
from the nest
you drove your son
(like your daughter before him)
with the sweet, sickly smell
of possession<\/p>\n\n\n\n
but
unperturbed
your jasmine arms
probed their fingers
into any crevice they could find<\/p>\n\n\n\n
yes
you weeded your way
into our garden of love
until nothing
was left untainted<\/p>\n\n\n\n
great
was your joy
when
he and I
separated<\/p>\n\n\n\n
you sad
frightened woman\u2014
you never knew
how much<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I loved your son.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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