It isn\u2019t my wedding
But my heart is with another
It is not with me<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The bride had it, smiling, speaking with guests
but she is now passing it to another<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It fills them both with awe and love and happiness<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Perturbed, my nervous eyes are on my heart
Don\u2019t they know I need it back?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I yearn for it<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I yearn for a drink as well but that\u2019s not a great idea
It could harm my heart<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Now the bride has my heart again
Here comes the bride<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Gliding, radiant
Stopping, she passes my heart back to me<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tufts of soft black hair peep over the pastel blanket
Another girl has upstaged her but she doesn\u2019t mind
An exquisite weight and warmth home in my arms<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I exhale
Inhale
Beautiful baby scent
My six day old daughter<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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